so.. today is the first day of lent.. well its ash wednesday.. the beginning of the 40 day kong journey that us Catholic embark every year in February.. i think its when we try to find ourselves. and of course try to find what we can sacrafice to make ourselves a better.. this year.. i really don't know what is going on.. i just find that this time of year is when i really reflect on my life and see what changes i must include in my life.. we all have those little things we feel as if its qwhat we should give up because its lent.. but i want to do something that may chhange my life or make me a better person.. even after these fourty day of lent..this year.. i am determind to find myself unlike most years..we'll see where i am in april.. this will be my last blog until april 2009.. when i come back, ill have more adventures to tell, life changing events, and a new me.... peace!

what happens if i have a secret that i can't tell anyone about.. especially if i can't tell my best friend.. who else is there for me to turn to. i don't know.. it seems as if i don't really have anywhere else to go.. i just need to get anyway.. maybe i should still leave for my trip at the end of march.. who knows.. we'l seee where everything leads me too..

here is my little cousin. :)