It's almost over

I can't believe that this year is coming to an end.. I'm suppose to be happy and feeling joyful but I'm not. I think I'm feeling otherwise. I'm stressed, overwhelmed, tired, etc. I didn't keep my goal of getting a 3.5 for my first semester. I joined thieu nhi when I said I won't. I became Interim nganh truong for nganh thieu. Wow. Going to Orange county on Tuesday but I don't feel like going home, I just want to go back to Monterey and just sleep for a week, but I'm not. I feel like I have to go home, thats why i'm thinking about going home for vietnamese new year. I might not even though I bought my ticket already. And i'm saving up for my dad's birthday and wedding present when I'm saving up for rent, ehh, thats over like $3,000 right there.

ehh, i'm too tired to think to get my thoughts or any thoughts at all. so peace ;)

i am sitting at LAX right now. on my way to minnesota --> wisconsin.. hands down listen to anh phi hung, have no expections at all for this trip. i'm excited, yet scared for this trip. i hope my addiction won't overcome me this weekend. i've been strong, but am i strong enough to fight this. only time will let me. God give me your grace and strenght to avoid sinning. i thank God everyday for giving me my best friend who helps me with this problem. theres no one else i can come to about this. may this not be a factor that would injury our bond. time to go now. peace world.

I dont think i can

I dont think i can do this anymore..

i need something to change.
i don't know what's going on..

I haven't been happy and I think its obvious.. Well maybe not obvious, but people can see that I'm not myself. After talking a lot with my best friend, most of it is resolved..


thanks for helping me with my addiction.
i want to stay pure for Christ.



you are my best friend. my first true best friend .i am glad i met you last year. i can't believe we have known each other for a year now. i want to thank you for all oyu have done for me especially since you were able to develop enough trust with me for me to let you into the most intimate aspect of my life. i can never thank you enough. i love you best friend. thank you helping me agsint temptation. and being there for me. sleep tight.

i thank God for letting me take 1 step forward and hate the world that I'm always taking 3 steps back.

internal turmoil..