Let Lose

I have never been so disappointed in this world.. or is it in myself. Everyone told me that no one knows me is because I don't bother letting anyone into myself. Before, I let everyone in, told them everything, left my scar'd, broken in pieces. I chose to let a few individuals into my life again, and I now don't know if they're the right individuals. I have never been so hurt by those words. Maybe this is in my head. Nothing should change regardless what happens, really theres no reason too. Why would things be different? Everyday I fight this battle with myself, I know I'll end up losing because I can't take it anymore. What happens if the person i trust and love the most. Won't accept me if I was that way? Honestly, I dont know what I is. I have had this thought since the 9th grade. Maybe it is I who won't accept the truth. Accept. Denied. Love. Trust. Honesty.

You accepted to be my best friend. I didn't force you. You should be able to love me no whatever and things should not change no matter what.

Only time will tell..

on a little note, I hope I stop coughing =[