Daily Struggles

Here I am thinking about my life, my short coming, and everything.

I never thought of it as an addiction tell a few days ago, I now look at it as an addiction, because it is and its dragging me down. I have the need for it everyday. It serves a separation from me and God. I thank God for giving me someone who can be accountable with me. I never really had second looks at it till now. Its been 5 days, my goal is another 3 days. I want to do it in baby steps. With prayer and best friend, I shall over come. The temptation is killing me inside. Self-Control.

I feel as if I am living a double-life. No one knows the other half of me. The Sinner that I am, I wish I wasn’t this way. I still can’t tell best friend about how I truly deeply feel inside because I myself do not know how I feel inside. It breaks my heart to know that it separates me from God. I truly can not accept myself under this condition.


On a lighter note, I will begin my work out tomorrow, to get rid of my fat. Start slow, stay strong. My goal is 130 by the end of May.


I think I am definitely growing.

pray, pray, pray